Assalamualaikum.
Its hard to pretending you dont have any feelings of anger, sadness, or loneliness can literally destroy your mentally.
Yaa i knew it.
Your heart says "yes" your head says "no" and you say "i dont know"
hmmm i miss you. No! Yes! No! Yes! No No No! Yes yes yes :(
Sorry im annoying, sorry im not funny, sorry im boring, sorry i mess up, im sorry i exist.
yeah im sorry, i hate myself :)
If you never thanks to Allah after every smile, then why do you blame Allah for every sadness and tear?
Think about it. Note to myself. Thanks